___________________Baby is this love for real? <3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-11-09T11:59:00

2009-11-09T17:20:38Z

November, November, November.

Three weeks of doing no photo projects, oops! my own fault of slacking. I thought doing all Liberal Arts projects would make things go that much faster with these last two months. Everything would be done, and I would be less stress. HOWEVER I should never ever underestimate my professors and their tricks of trade of giving us more to do then we can possible handle, but I will take the shortly assigned projects, smile and do them. & Come evaluation,watch out. Speaking of school, and having only 7 months from graduating I have decided to not only take thesis and portfolio(have to) but throw in Graphic Design, just because....maybe a little Buddhist Art History.

Someone enlighten me on this. If someone invites you and your boyfriend to their boyfriends Halloween party and you say "I don't know I have to see", then it ends up turning into a "No" do you think your friend should be mad and never talk to you again? I never promised I would go, I never even left you hanging saying "We will see" I gave you an answer. I didn't have a costume and would feel uncomfortable being around a bunch of people when I wasn't even in the spirit to dress up. Then the next day, texts you saying "Come downtown for Halloween" so you do, only for them to never show up and never even text you back. Let's be mature? If you have an issue with how I handled not wanting to go to your party, tell me. Don't stop talking to me? Isn't that the true story though, that the people that you want to be your friends won't talk to you, and the ones that do you don't want to talk to them in the first place.

December..December..December

1/2 to graduation. Key Westin''*; North Carolina o0 home sweet home o0o and finally 2010

insanedaisyz @ 2009-11-02T15:25:00

2009-11-02T20:26:20Z

and in this crazy life and through these crazy times

it's you, it's you, you make me sing.

you're every line, you're every word, you're everything <3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-07-27T11:02:00

2009-07-27T15:12:55Z

So life is absolutely wonderful, but what else is new.

I am in the process of having my business card created, I bought my domain name and am designing my web site. Everything is going perfect at the moment. I shot my first wedding out on Longboat Key for a family at their mansion of a home. The cermony was beautiful then following was the reception buffet lunch with caters. I recieved almost $300 for 3 hours + editing. The family was so sweet. They end up loving my pictures, thank god. A good reference for later =) My friends Lisa and Kaleb that I go to NC with (friends of Elliot's moms) are having a October wedding at a church followed by Marina Jacks(this bay front restaunt downtown) Classyyy. I get to take the video for it. I'm being trained on doing that in my job now anyhow, so it will be easy. In December Elliot is the best man in a Key West wedding right before Christmas, I'm obviously the photographer for that =) We might work it out so we get to stay at the Bed and Breakfast for me doing the pictures. Soo Exicted

In other news; senior year starts in a few weeks. Holy shit. I'm a senior. I will be out in the real world May 7th, 2010! I'm ready, ready, ready to graduate. It's going to be amazing. I think Elliot and I are either going to Hawaii for 2 weeks or Europe for a couple weeks for my graduation present. I will need it, after thesis and portfolio and the pressure of this year.

Not much else here, I'll keep you updated =) xoxox

insanedaisyz @ 2009-05-18T22:29:00

2009-05-19T02:43:33Z

Goodbyes have always been hard for me, especially when I am not sure of when I'm going to see the person, if ever again? I know it is apart of life, but in this case I wish it didn't have to be. How do I go about this? This person I am talking about, she has easily been an inspiration towards my schooling, my passion of Photography and just in general telling me to keep trucking when I've had the worst day possible and don't feel like being at work any longer. She is geniue and the type of lady my grandma use to be. I think that's what makes me so fond of her in the first place, she is like another grandma to me.

Well, I did my best in saying bye tonight, with the tears ready to pour out, I didn't cry luckily, "Have a safe trip to Utah, Please keep in touch" handing her my note, hugged her bye n I walked away. It's so much easier to write in a note, all the things I appericated. and that is that, I am now left in a complete utter mess here, and she is moving away to Utah with her family who she should be with in the first place. Only two more days and I am on vacation, I'll need it after today.

:sigh: :(

insanedaisyz @ 2009-05-06T10:27:00

2009-05-06T14:28:05Z

i'm counting down the days until im out of this ridiculious heat! only 17 more days and ill be in beautiful oregon and washington :) we are thinking about going to the cabin in north carolina or to tally for the fourth of july. whew i love traveling<333

insanedaisyz @ 2009-04-23T22:19:00

2009-04-24T02:38:09Z

Junior year is done after next week. I'd like to say "Wow time flys, but it really doesn't".. I feel like I've been in school for five years. In going to this school, I have seen the best of me, and the worst of me up until this point in time and everything in between. I have wanted to quit several times, but won't let myself get to that point, I want this so much and I'll have it by this time next year =]. Senior Thesis show tomorrow night! to see what I'll be up against in the outside world, and more so what Tom 'oh chief of the PDI' is looking for in these year long senior projects.

Other news, Internship is going rather well. I feel awkard at times but it's all good.. like the other day when I was minding my own business in the office, decided to take a quick five minute break and choke down the leftover salad I had gotten from Whole Foods, I scramped in the kitchen to the fridge as I open the fridge...out of the side of my eye I see boobs. Boobs? Wedding photographers boobs. She was walking around I guess sunbathing outside NUDE. Keeping in my mind that this is her house, I went back to the office in the back of the house and sat there confused at people and why they do the things they do even in the privacy of their own homes, when other people are around. :sigh: The afternoon was spent photoshopping sexy pictures of the bride taken with the flowers she walked down the aisle with, in her ass...well her stretch marks off her chest and the other nonsense I had to see. But aside from seeing those beautiful creations I play with her adorable poodle puppy, sent out some blast emails, answer the phones, going to shoot some beach weddings soon..

Elliot is the apple of my eye. It's amazing how I still get butterflies every time I see him even after 5 1/2 months of being together almost everyday. 6 months on Monday, and I think we are going to try out the Melting Pot. I'm soo thrilled, because I've never been there or even had fondue before. Hopefully this cute feeling lasts me for a while.

<3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-04-07T14:50:00

2009-04-07T19:02:47Z

Who would've thought, within a few days of sending out my resume and cover letter that I'd get two call backs, with possible internships for this summer. In order to graduate with my bacholar's degree next May, I need to find an internship with a photography company. I went on an interview today, with a well known wedding photographer in the area who also shoots fashion for style magazine, and recieved an offer ;) I'm going to be working for her two days a week until the end of the year, then this summer 20 hours a week assisting her at wedding's, doing website work, financing for her business and learning the whole business. As much as I didn't want to get involved in shooting weddings, it might be something I need to learn to like. It pays 800-2,000 a wedding in my area. +++ she offered to pay me, along with my credit for school! Cha-ching!

I was getting so fed up with my other job, so if I could find something to cover a few more hours a week I would be set to quit Heron House after a year of working there. It's really changed, since I started working there. My favorites have all passed away, moved out...or are in the process of moving out. The management has changed from worse, to the worst.

Who wants to go with me to Portland, to see how beer is made at my uncle's brewery, go snowboarding at MT Hood, see the Columbia Gorge, take in the sights of Seattle and most importantly accompany me on my wine tour of Oregon and Washington? :]

insanedaisyz @ 2009-04-05T22:39:00

2009-04-06T02:40:59Z

sometimes when the air is still, my mind flies to you, to when
you were you and i was me. somehow i feel nervous now more
then ever.

insanedaisyz @ 2009-03-25T22:26:00

2009-03-26T02:26:44Z

I can not wait to move to Chicago, Seattle or Tallahasse!!! =)

insanedaisyz @ 2009-03-19T21:21:00

2009-03-20T01:22:12Z

TALLAHASSEE TOMORROW!! <3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-03-15T21:03:00

2009-03-16T01:04:05Z

status: would love to cry

insanedaisyz @ 2009-03-14T17:10:00

2009-03-14T21:21:55Z

Sarasota is such a small town, and it being a small town you run into people you know all the time. I could've easily drop kicked this girl who talks so much nonsense across every store I bumped into her in. Tania was lucky enough to witness how stupid Venice girls are. I hope when they get to college, no one intends on putting up with their bullshit and sets them straight about how the real world is, and let's them get a taste of their own medicine. Everyone knows everyone's story, who people have dated, who people are dating...who cares anymore? I am out of high school, I have been so keep me out of your drama. Also, I feel as if Sarasota people aren't friendly, but quite stuck up little brats. Hopefully it's not everywhere in Florida, that this occurs. Someone send me to Chicago or Seattle as soon as possible.

My feelings get hurt quite frequently over small petite things that at the end of the day don't matter but I can't help getting upset over them. Christina knows what I am talking about. I need to find away to calm myself down over such issues and see that everything is okay even if one thing changes. MMmmM .

Not quite sure how to feel about my sister adding me on facebook, now she knows my every move and everytime I post a picture, oh dear. It wasn't like I could be like "deny sister dearest" We don't get along, we never really have but I felt like I needed to add her. Facebook is for distant family members, cousins your age, siblings your age maybe, not grandpa's or grandmas. My mom has one..and now I found out as of today my dad has one. Please don't add me parents, I dont want to deny you. :[

Last night was SILLY. Tonight should be a repeat. I'm off to Elliot's parents for his brother's birthday dinner<3 and to chill with my second familia. Love you all.<3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-03-01T19:57:00

2009-03-02T01:16:13Z

Everyone meet the newest addition to my family Parker Lucas born on 2/28 at 11:05am. He is absolutely precious! Isn't he? We keep having boys in this family though, someone needs to pop out a girl pretty soon! I have four nephews, who I love don't get me wrong. I just need a little girl to buy cute dresses for!

Camping was fun. Friday night was rough though, and by rough I mean the air mattress deflated so in the middle of the night after tossing and turning I begin to wonder why I couldnt fall asleep, why I felt like I was going to throw up and why I was SO cold!! We were right next to a road so there were cars shining there lights straight in on the tent after a while, to top of the night a vicous raccon was trying to bite his way thru the tent to get food. It scared me so bad. One hour of sleep! I woke up feeling so sick and it just got so much worse throughout the day. However, I did enjoy the canoe test down the Hillsbrough River with Elliot :] followed by lunch and exploring an old fort. We ended up coming home last night because I was miserable, a cold front was coming thru and it was raining.

19 days until Tally, I am really exicted :] We are staying at his aunt's guest house. I really hope I get the chance to meet his uncle David and aunt. I need to get off this thing, and get to work on my resume for the 30th time and a ton of other editing in photoshop. Take care! and comment. I miss talking to everyone <3

insanedaisyz @ 2009-02-17T12:06:00

2009-02-17T17:07:26Z

i hope this never changes. <3

hmm bored, excuse me tania!

2009-02-12T15:21:13Z

♥ Your name and your SO's name?
Jessica & Elliot

♥ How long have you been together?
a little less then 4 months

♥ How long did you know each other before you started dating?
a month??!

♥ Who asked who out?
he asked me out, finally.

♥ How old are each of you?
21, 22 in 2 days and he's 22 will be 23 in may :)

♥ Do you have any children together?
no

♥ If you do not have children, do you want them? yeah when i graduate and we move to seattle.

♥ What about pets? no

♥ Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple? idk.

♥ Did you go to the same school?
nope

♥ Where you high school sweethearts?
no

♥ Are you from the same home town? nope

♥ Who is the smartest? he is, by far.

♥ Who is the most sensitive? i am

♥ Where do you eat out most as a couple? anywhere

♥ What do you enjoy doing as a couple? being with each other, going to fairs and festivals, camping, going to NC!, traveling<3

♥ Who has the craziest exes? i dont know...both of us.

♥ Who has the worst temper?
mmmm it depends on the situation

♥ Who does the cooking?
both, but he's better at it

♥ Who is more social? he is

♥ Was it love at first sight? love, love?

♥ Who is the neat-freak? neither.

♥ Who is the more stubborn?
o god both of us!

♥ Who hogs the bed?
i think he does

♥ Who wakes up earlier? depends on the day.

♥ Where was your first date? to his house to watch a movie

♥ Who has the bigger family? he does

♥ Do you get flowers often? nope

♥ Who is more jealous? i am

♥ Who is more organized? he is

♥ How long did it take to get serious?
umm it was pretty quick

♥ Who eats more? elliot

♥ Who does the laundry?
me!

♥ Are you married/how long?
no, hopefully one day..

♥ Who’s better with the computer? he iS! a computer babyyy.

♥ Who drives when you are together?
he does almost always

insanedaisyz @ 2009-02-11T22:42:00

2009-02-12T03:45:19Z

i dont know if im completely out of the loop and old fashion on how to be a friend, but here is what i think a friend is someone who is there no matter what for you, and listens. vice verus, not just someone who wants you to listen to there problems and somehow isnt around when something happens to you. someone who makes the effort. it seems like i am loosing [3] of my 'friends' lately, although they pretend to still be there, god knows why...either be there, or dont. anyhow 22nd birthday coming up. saturday! shhould i cry for being so damn old or celebratE?

insanedaisyz @ 2009-01-10T00:05:00

2009-01-10T05:05:15Z

"go to sleep, dream about you. because in my dreams we're always together" <33

insanedaisyz @ 2008-11-23T20:37:00

2008-11-24T01:37:29Z

what to do...:'(
ugh

insanedaisyz @ 2008-10-23T09:04:00

2008-10-23T13:05:00Z

I think I may be going thru a midlife crisis, it's auctually pretty fun. ;)

insanedaisyz @ 2008-10-13T21:41:00

2008-10-14T01:53:14Z

isn't that quote so true.? im the type of person though, that no matter who was in my life to begin with & what they'd said or done to me, would want them in my life when i leave this world. fucked up? yeah i'm well aware. if only i could explain what excatly i mean by this, well i guess you sorta get the picture. ive been slowly trying to regroup my thoughts & build myself up yet again. it's so far proven to have it's down faults, but i won't stop trying.

i didn't literally know how exhausting living could be & i'm about to be ten times more exhausted the next couple months.

insanedaisyz @ 2008-07-03T12:50:00

2008-07-03T16:52:24Z

I'm still alive! Work is just killing me slowly. 5am to 230 every single day. I don't want to do anything but come home and sleep afterwards. I have much to talk about! but have to go take my poor baby kitten into the vet. I'll write later. I promise<3

insanedaisyz @ 2008-06-12T05:38:00

2008-06-12T09:42:35Z

you are all i want, all i need & everything i deserve, why cant you see that?

a good word for how i feel this morning going to work 'pessimistic'.

i have so many other thoughts, emotions, feelings running thru my mind

but for now it comes all down to that i miss you. to everyone that reads this;

i know a few of you have emailed me in the past couple days asking whats up.

give me some time to respond. right now, i dont want to be around anyone

or talk to anyone. thanks. and if you are reading this, which you prob never

will, you will never know how much i love you or how much u mean to me

:[ :[ :[ :[ :[ :[ :[

insanedaisyz @ 2008-05-09T10:30:00

2008-05-09T14:32:18Z

-going to see American Idol's Syesha Mercadoooo in like an hour, because she's coming home<3 definetely have to get going though.

insanedaisyz @ 2008-05-08T11:10:00

2008-05-08T15:22:02Z

It's been a while since I've written in this.
I keep forgetting I have one. School's over.
Needlessly to say I wish I would've done a little
bit better, but nothing I can do about that now.
I'll be a Junior next year, when I should be graduating.
I wish they would just let me graduate :/
I have the credits and am ready to leave.
Hollister is without a doubt not working out.
I was so close to quitting that place. I found a job
on St Armands Circle at Kilwin's Chocolates and Ice
Cream for full time, 8+ tips. I went to my first day
of training, they had my schedule until 1am every
day this weekend. Call me a baby, but that's unsafe.
Plus I don't want to drive an half hour home after I get
off at 1am. I'm going to go job searching today for a
serving job at a retirement home, and also sent this
photographer who is looking for a wedding assistat my
resume, so I hope to hear back on that. I guess I'll keep
Hollister for now too. The job market down in Sarasota
has gotten so ridlciously bad.

Anyhow Ryan took me to Orlando for our 3 year annvy
last Thursday :). We got there and had a little dinner at
City Walk n hung out at the hot tub. Friday, we got up
and we over to Universial and did the new Simpson's ride
and went tot IOA and did the water rides. Friday night
went to Pastamore and went to see Forgetting Sarah Marshall
then drank at Pat OBrian's<33 I love that place. Saturday
we went to a couple shows and went to IOA to ride Spiderman.
then hung out at the pool all day. Saturday night, we went to
Hardrock Cafe and then back to the pool again and hot tub.
Sunday we went to the Milinia mall and then home. It was a
nice relaxing weekend.

Anyhow. Not much else to say.
Hope everyones having a good weekend.
<3

insanedaisyz @ 2008-04-23T01:25:00

2008-04-23T05:31:19Z

4 more days until I'm on a very long summer break from school. I don't understand how anyone in there right mind can still be alive after taking six classes at my school. Specially since I'm freaking out and only taking five?. W0w. I'll be a junior next year, should be a senior..but hey let's not talk about what's obviously bothering me at the moment. I have a whole other year to think about my senior thesis and get prepared to go in front of the audience and have to stick up for my work. I still have a ton more to do. Remind me again, never ever to sign up for a China class, a class w/ Dr Bloomer or a graphic design course. I have had my share of horrible chinese animation and talks about the night life as well as flash videos and creating interactive cubes via the computer screen. Speaking of which, I am so far ahead with my credits..why won't they let me graduated now :/ rar.. just a little bitter.

Don't mind this entry...its 130 in the morning and I've done about five hours of hand coloring for my portfolio so I am going crazy.